Monday, May 4, 2015

Time Bomb

Waiting. I feel if I add up all the seconds, minutes and hours spent waiting for something, anything, I would've lost at least 2 years of my life thus far. That may be a bit of an exaggeration but I think you get the point. Whether I am waiting at a stop light, for the bathroom, for good and bad news, or for my food to arrive at my table... I feel life itself consists of the uneasy feeling of waiting. A virtue I have yet to be comfortable with. A monster that I simply "just can't even". I hate waiting. I'd rather stab myself in the eye with a fork than wait. I don't want to wait - I want instant gratification. Insert brat whines here.. 

I've learned that most of all good things come out of waiting. When it finally does arrive: Did I really need it? Is this what I wanted? Does it benefit me? Am I happier now than before? It gives me time to think about what I was waiting for and why. I find myself answering "no" to these questions to some actions and answers I thought I needed instantly. If not, I would keel over and die. Turns out, life gives you the things you ask for when it wants to give it to you. Or for better or worst, Life thought you can do better without it. It teaches self-growth as you find ways to satiate your impatience or an alternative answer for you to dwell on. 

I am still toning up my waiting skills. As I am writing this, I am waiting for something that might not happen until a year or so. It makes me cringe on the thought of how long I will have to wait until it happens. But as I am sitting here drowning in impatience, I've come to my senses and realized that I can wait. There's other things for me to do until the day I've anticipated arrives. Or even, I may not want it anymore. Things always happen for a reason, because life is a bit of a prick and likes to drive us mad and have us learn the hard way.

  But real talk for a second, I can practice the virtue of patience and I many times can succeed, but when it comes to pizza, burgers and brunches...what is patience, again?

H&M Collar Necklace | Forever21 Blouse | D-iD Jeans | Zara Mules

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