Tuesday, January 5, 2016

Adult Puberty



I feel free. That's so strange to say since I wasn't in anyway physically or emotionally incarcerated. But if I was held at gunpoint (I just HAD to take it to violence, sorry) and was demanded to describe in one word how I feel with the new year in conjunction with my recent move and changes, I want to say I feel fcken free. 2015 was definitely a year of adjustments for me because my whole life has been altered for the better during that period of time: New job, new apartment, new roommate, new adventures, all that new-new. But in a sense, I was still growing into myself and losing my training wheels from the world of adolescents into being a straight-up real adult. Spoiler alert: Totally still not a real adult yet but I can certainly play one. And we all know being an adult is annoying and difficult 90% of the time when you're trying to avoid showers and eat ice cream in front of a TV all day long. 


2015 like I said, I was about losing my training wheels. I still held traces of naiveté. I was learning the ropes of setting up my future. I was learning to be okay with losing friends. I had to learn how to strongly and effectively fight back when I know I was being taken advantage of. I had to learn to please people less and worry about me more. Overall, there were traces of innocence and lack of self integrity that I entered 2015 with. I took that year by the balls to solidify my self confidence and just simply give myself room to grow into my own without any limits. Like, adult puberty. That sounded so disgusting.


 Entering 2016, I now removed myself from that shell and loosened even more of my naiveté. I'm still learning different ropes and finding new ones. I'm definitely thinking more for myself and not let anyone hinder my opinion with their own. (I don't care if you think what I'm doing/wearing is not cool, make any sense or make you roll your eyes. I fcken like it/want to do it and you don't have to join me/wear it, and if you can't get over it, you can suck it.) I now have a better understanding of what needs to be said or done to make me comfortable and happy. I guess this is the year to strengthen what I've gained in the last and I am for sure, more comfortable now than I have ever been. 


And for added bonus: I have unlocked a new level in the game of life - I am living with my long time boyfriend and I am having so much fcken fun.


American Apparel Turtle Neck dress | Zara Dress | Zara Booties



2 comments:

  1. hell yeah tina! so happy for you! keep killin it homegirl

    -Feewap (not Fetty Wap)

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    1. haha you're amazing! Love ya, dude. <3

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